Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Hello people !! back to update me bloggie !! anyways, was listening to Cao Ge - Bei Pan.. listen till emo so decided to change my blog song to that..

9th june

Went out to meet Ziyang cause he wanted to go Sim Lim Square to buy some stuffs.. accompanied him there.. after which headed to eGames.. played there till about 9 plus, Ziyang got to go home le.. so i continued staying there ba.. played till about 12 plus 1am.. logged of my com !! and guess who i saw.. hahaha.. SONGWEI !! LOLX !! so qiao la, long time no see le !! like FINALLY !!

Left for supper at Changi Village with my friend, or should say my breakfast, lunch and dinner all together.. ate nasi lemak and honeydew sago.. after which headed back home le.. tired sial.. reached home at about 4am..

10th june

Woke up at 4 plus in the afternoon.. on my computer.. while using it, my 1st aunt called and said that she's outside my door.. so i went to open it for her.. then she was like asking me how i was bla bla bla..

At about 6 plus, mum and dad came back.. and so we were talking.. came upon the issue regarding my studies.. so i told them that i might be taking ACCA.. thus, my mum said i always failed accountings in secondary take ACCA sure waste money.. hearing that, i totally lost my mood.. so my brother told my mum that he also don't like accounting don't even have basics but still applied for accounting at SMU what, then my mum told my brother that he's different and that she believed that he sure can get good results one.. thanks for trying to defend me bro.. but it's up to her to voice out what she think about me ba.. totally moodless.. even mum don't believe me.. then why should i even strive for my studies??

Suddenly felt so useless, although when people don't believe you, it's up to you to change their opinion of you.. but now i don't even have the urge to do that.. what to do ?? i'm a poly dropout, smokes, drinks.. my bro got As and Distinctions for his A'levels.. definately people will look down on the dropout that drinks and smokes.. no wonder my blog link is so pessimistic.. now i finally know the reason..

And so i was thinking about what my 2nd aunt told me that time, she asked me if the reasons i don't wanna go to reunions is that i was afraid other relatives might look down on me.. maybe that's the reason ba.. i don't really know.. suddenly i felt emptiness again, no aims no future.. haix.. forget it.. even my mum don't believe in me.. she was saying that she was disappointed with me, said i'm so useless, stubborn, smokes, refuse to work and learn all the bad things.. then said i don't wanna study, but frankly speaking i do wanna study, just that i'm just afraid that i might waste my parent's money again like i did during poly times..

This is life i guess.. in life there's ups and downs.. but to me it seems that life only has downs and no ups.. sorry for blabbering so much here.. but i really dunno who should i tell all these to, so i turned to my blog..

11th june

Woke up at 2pm, bathed and headed down to ICA to get my IC.. finally after so long.. immediately after taking my IC, headed to Chinatown Point to look for Victor for my haircut.. he works at Kimage.. reached there at about 4.15pm.. by the time i finished cutting it was already 5.30pm.. didn't expect that i cut my hair for about 1hr 15mins.. lolx.. chatted too much le..

Left Chinatown Point, headed to Lot 1 @ Choa Chu Kang to apply for my singnet 5mbps broadband plan.. cause i'm like still using PacNet 512kb one.. sianz sial !! i want faster speed.. after settling everything, went to Sakae Sushi for dinner.. me and my friend ate like 27 plates.. quite scary.. $60+ for our dinner.. LOLX !!

Went down to Junction 8 cause i wanted to get the anime that i wanted so long.. however the staffs at Best Denki said that they changed management and most of the animes were removed.. sad la.. in the end got Ghost Rider and a documentary School of Rock.. my friend drove me to the 7-11 nearby my house to get some big gulps then went to the carpark at my house there and we watched Ghost Rider in his car.. after which i headed home.. damn tired, but somehow i don't know why i'm still awake now.. i think i really become nightowl le..

I think that's all ba.. today i also don't know where i will be heading to, maybe going to settle my outstanding bills and get my lan card at Sim Lim Square for my new singnet broadband ba.. then wednesday meeting a friend to go out after which ton somewhere.. if not at home also very boring.. take care guys.. good night..

tags replied:

itx: errr.. it's on 23rd august 2007 2pm.. haha.. hao ba.. we shall see when to meet !!

darfy: haha after so long man ! but i see no actions wors.. haha.. see ya online !!